Cold nights

I almost bought Wendy a giant Rice krispy treat. I stumbled upon this 8th wonder of the gas station convenient mart in my never ending quest for Hot chocolate.
Alan, in an odd turn of events, was the voice of reason. "We will probably have to help her eat it" *blink* *nod* *smile* "You're right" *sip*
Moving on.... The night started full of plans that I am sad to say I felt obligated to shape, shift, and attend. I am even sadder to report I also feel i alienated a friend in the process. I have been running on fumes for the past 2 weeks and I tend to mess up as a result. *pulls hair into pony tail*

Blast from the past!

Peaches emailed this to me. His sister found it in her email. It was an email to my friends in AZ from Massachusetts. Again do not judge me on the spelling and flow. I used to just write and never look back so as to capture my most random thoughts.
Here it is in it's entirety. It took all my will power not to spell / grammar check it: P

Saw this kid the other day riding a bike with no seat. I was alarmed. somewhere some kid is being beaten with a bycycle seat and its all this fat kids fault!! how lazy do you have to be to not put your bike seat back on, i tell ya if i ever fnd it ill beat him with it myself.

but thats just another day in the chute. full of cantankerous old woman who insist on ordering of the kids menu. its one thing to order off the kids menu, but dont give me the eye when i hand you crayons! i like crayons. nuthing wrong with it. i also enjoi watching the lumberjack olympics on espn. is that wrong? well if you watch like i do i suppose so, im secretly rooting that theyll slip and rack themselves on the log. or biff it real entertaining like. dont judge me! most of the nascar watchin hicks here are thinkin the same thing.

searching for schoalrships. ive decide to be an english major with a minor in foreign languages. but i shant learn anyuseful ones. anyone can learn french, italian, or german. i will learn swahili, pigeon, dutch and latin. you know pretty rare. alot of people speak french but swahili, there's a rariity. you dont see that everyday. so one day when they dont want to give me a job beacause im brown. (but they dont say that)so they say i cant have the job because i dont speak swahili, wont they be surprised when i in fact i do. thatll show em. french pff who needs it.

sigh at least my will to live has returned. here ive time to myself to read rite and rant. my 3ree rs.

ha is she joking?

Before you jump to conclusions about all the friends i have just remember they were born that way

The best laid plans...

Hear them humming....

Really?! 10:30 huh.

I sat down to write this is anger.
Then I forgot who i was angry at more.
Inevitably fatigue sent in.

I know I'm going to be half honest during a blog when I open another window of the internet and start shopping for smoking accessories. Which brings me to my first confession. I strongly dislike the sound of people eating peanut butter and jelly sammiches. However discreet said eater is there is something so unrefined about it. Perhaps the nostalgia of this childhood delicacy is so great we revert to old eating habits. Happily munching away. If you guessed that the PB&J represents my relationship with my father and that smoking accessories is just a euphemism than you would probably be me and I hate you. [insert smiley face]

I cried this weekend. Not my proudest moment but I think it was for the best.
Opening a third internet tab means I'm avoiding the subject.[scratches ear]
Wow its a doozy I was browsing for like 20 minutes. Here we go...

This weekend was full or hurt feelings and seeming over reactions. The truth is I do not like ultimatums. I cannot understand not investing yourself in your friends.
So like I said at the beginning I started this post in anger but a huge part of friendships is forgiving weekends like this. Tomorrow is Monday and I ask that you join in me in a mutual distaste for the day.

In today's news Esteban,the most interesting pug/chihuaha in the world, was adopted today. This ones for you. [smooch]

Lull

A sense of boredom has begun to creep in.
The autumn weather causes such wander lust and I can't help but want to just wile away hours walking in a forest listening to its sounds. Walking like I did before i was aware of bears wolves and other such creatures that frequent such places.
Walking with nowhere to go.

Mucha pena pero poca verguenza.

I forgot I had this blog, posted in June, forgot again and here we are.
Age aside my previous posts are rather addle brained and lets not even talk about the spelling.
So desperate was I to find an outlet for the crazy that I would just type and never edit for fear of censoring myself.
Don't shake your head JoEse, assuming I worked up the courage to give him and David my blog site, I can hear you now. All excuses and no results ; ) Don't judge me.
To regale you with past mischief would take all night. Lets start fresh but not forget that I'm crazy and you knew that when you met me.